Waiting is never easy, but I really want to keep moving forward. The next adoption seminar is the end of November and we are planing on going. :) I'm really looking forward to it.
I'm surprised how calm I feel this time around. I even keep forgetting the date I'm supposed to take the pregnancy test. It's comforting to feel this at ease. I guess it's what happens when you let go of control. :)
Me
This journey begins with a lot of excitement and fears, which was the reason for this blog when I started it in 2010. It was meant to be an outlet for me, but after only two posts, I quickly realized I was a far more private person than I thought. Three years later, we are still on this journey and a lot has changed. I've come to realize that sharing this very personal journey may not only help me, but may help another woman going through the same thing.
A little about me. I've endured a lot of heart-break growing up. Through heart-aches I've gained strength, courage, faith, and the ability to laugh. I truly believe with God, loving friends and laughter, any soul can heal. I'm a strong and positive person, but I can feel this journey is testing the very person that I am. I'm grateful to have awesome women in my life walking with me. I'm also blessed with an amazing husband. I've had to be strong a lot in my life, but he has taken that burden from me, and I just couldn't be more grateful to have him as my husband.
A little about me. I've endured a lot of heart-break growing up. Through heart-aches I've gained strength, courage, faith, and the ability to laugh. I truly believe with God, loving friends and laughter, any soul can heal. I'm a strong and positive person, but I can feel this journey is testing the very person that I am. I'm grateful to have awesome women in my life walking with me. I'm also blessed with an amazing husband. I've had to be strong a lot in my life, but he has taken that burden from me, and I just couldn't be more grateful to have him as my husband.
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Last IUI
Today is our last IUI. I feel good! I feel calm. I feel as if I will be okay with what ever happens. I'm turning it over to God. If we get pregnant, great! If we don't, then God's plan for us is adoption which will be just as much of a beautiful experience. What we want most, is to be parents. However this comes to be, we will be happy and feel blessed.
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
A New Direction
I'm feeling a lot better after my last blog post. A break is just what I needed. I'm coming to terms that conceiving a child just may not happen for us, and that's okay. Conceiving a child is not the only way to start a family. There is adoption. Something we talk about frequently. In 2012 we even met with someone regarding adoption to get more information. In August of this year we were referred to an adoption agency and have connected with them. We have to attend their seminar before we can start the process. We wanted to attend their August seminar, but my husband wasn't able to miss work the dates of the seminar. We're planning on attending the November one. I really feel this is the direction God is leading us to. My husband isn't there just yet. He's open to it, but still is really hoping we can conceive. When we started the infertility process, we agreed to do 3 IUI's and I need to stick to our plan. Closure is important for both of us and I know for my husband he needs to follow through with what we initially agreed on.
So, we'll be doing one more IUI and that's it. I'm actually smiling again with the thought of moving on to adoption. :)
So, we'll be doing one more IUI and that's it. I'm actually smiling again with the thought of moving on to adoption. :)
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